Letters

Dear me

How you have been?  Open your eyes. You are ok. breathe in. Breath out. Open your eyes. Its all gone. Its fine. Its over. Its ok. Smile. Shhh.... Ok! let me tell you something, a short one to remind you. huh? ok.
There was a time when you felt at peace. You need to go back there, find the peace and bring it in you when you return. You need to let go.  You remember that person? that? Who said you have hurt her more than anyone can hurt anyone? That, for whom you could have set harbor to the fire so there was no place for her to go away.  But then you were afraid,  what if she was a mermaid. Yes! she. So, she wants to walk away. Tell her it doesnt hurt much because if you keep dotting the same wound again and again and again, the nerves all die. And then it goes numb. Thats why it doesnt hurt anymore.
Pay attention to what I am saying as i reckon you dont listen to anyone, I know what's good for you, now go and tell her you can hurt yourself only until there is something left to hurt. It will hurt first time, second time and maybe third time as well or say fourth time also then it does not. It just cut you. Tell her, Tell her if she cant stay, walk away silently. Rip the pages off words by words, piece by piece. tell her she no longer belong to you, so please walk away. tell her you were the best you could do. And when the sun goes down, her memories should also stay away from you. Why are you terrified of your own perception? Dont be. Just tell her to walk and pick up everything, not too heavy, not too light. If they dont make any significance for her, she could leave them.

Sincerely
Yours very own
Me

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Dear Me
Yes I'ill. I wont let myself get contaminated by hopes. 

Yours
 me